haunted ;
so yeah tts 1 realli bad side of me tt i dun think many will noe. unless ure realli observant. but i dun think theres anyone close enough to me to notice tt. not even weiming.
n i can be realli straightforward n stubborn. ive tried looking at HIM from a better perspective. but i still dislike him. i still hate him. jealousy, disgust, hatred.. it all builds up. dun ask me why. i cant be bothered to trash out things abt him. those under him r fine as individuals. but when they get together it disgusts me.
n i realli mean tt. weiming if u see this i can only say tt tts realli wad i feel.
tts y things r getting tough. ai wu ji wu. love a man, love his dog. like wtf the dog is screwed. it is the reason for so many of my mood swings. ive tried to tolerate ive tried to understand ive tried to let go.
now i dun even need to try. we're drifting.
then i ask myself. wad's there to hold on to? sad to say, i dun realli noe. maybe the answer is deep down somewhere inside. just tt i dun feel it now.. but tt goes to show tt all of it isnt strong enough. at least i dun feel tt strength. so i ask. wad abt faith? yeah okay tts a bit better. im feeling just a bit of it.
r we holding on just for the sake of convenience? r we holding on just bcos we're too used to each other's presence? like today. i was feelin damn weird n numb. but i still just went arnd school looking for him.. just like wad i wld usualli do (with much frustration n usualli to no avail tt is). itz mechanical.
i dun noe if im out of my mind now or wad. but ive said some of the stuff which i realli mean.
trash things out or trash me up.. up to u.
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